can't help but wonder

so valentine's day is saturday. and i know it's so clique but it makes me think of romance and how i'm not in a relationship. now, i'm not complaining. to be honest, i'm enjoying the single life at the moment. and i'm living it up. so saturday i will be celebrating singles awareness day lol but i can't help thinking about love and romance. and don't get me wrong, if i find the right guy sometime soon, i would be willing to give up my single status for him.

when i was in middle school and first started liking boys, i remember putting a list together of all the things i expected from my future boyfriend and potential husband. of course that list has changed over the years (drastically, might i add lol). i've gone through enough relationships (good, bad and even very very bad) in my short life to figure out things i like and definitely don't like in a guy. and things to look for in a guy, and things to stay far far away from. i use to think i had one specific type (looks-wise) i was interested in but over the years, i've also realized that seems to change as well.

some things on my list include:

• protective, but not controlling
• makes me laugh, and enjoys laughing with me
• knows when to be serious
• cuddling, with no other intention but just that
• can be comfortable talking to me about anything and everything
• is driven and his life is going in a positive direction
• doesn't need constant reassurance that i want to be with him
• being optimistic
• willingness to show his affection for me in public without going overboard
• respects my choice of friends (added bonus: become friends with them!)
• loves my family and can get along with them
• and a brand new addition to my list: love and adore kobie as much as i do :)

now this is only a very limited list but i just thought i would give you a quick overview.

i can't wait to have that love of my life and have that feeling. i've been hurt in the past but that doesn't deter me from wanting to be in love again. it's like the saying goes, "if you were in love once and it hurt this bad, imagine how amazing it will feel when you actually find The One." i look at my mom and dad's relationship and i can just see the love radiating around them. or i look at my friend v and her hubby and how in love they are. i can't wait to have that. i know, i know, i'm rushing my life away. but i still can't help but look forward to it.

i can't help but wonder who my "person" is.... do i know him now? have i met him yet in passing and we'll meet again? or when will i meet him? so many questions. i guess i should stop asking and just let fate run it's course.

happy valentine's day everyone!
(or singles awareness day, whichever you decide to celebrate lol)

oh and ps: this does not in any way say that i want to get married soon or am even close to being ready to get married lol just thought i would throw that out there....just in case anyone got freaked out *cough* mom *cough*