on my mind

lately, i haven't been too inspired to write. i don't know why, but the creative juices just aren't flowing. that, and the fact that there hasn't really been anything exciting going on in my life. so i guess i'll just give you a few quick updates of some things on my mind...

i've been a little stressed lately. the fact that summer is approaching fast and the idea that i'm completely on my own this summer (financially) is starting to sink in. this whole "real world" thing isn't looking too fun lately with all the expenses and bills and things i have to deal with. and on top of that, i have to take summer classes. how am i ever going to have free time? or a social life? i hope it really isn't as stressful as i'm making it out to be

little thing that's bothering me about the summer - i don't think i can afford going to hilton head with my family for our annual family summer vacation. we always go twice a year, once in the spring and once in the summer. since i started college, i've had to miss the spring one because my spring break doesn't coincide with my brother and sister's, so i can't go. but i've always gone on the summer trip. but this summer, i can't afford to miss a week of work. so i don't think i can go. and that's actually really upsetting. i feel like i'm starting to pull away from the family. yes, i'm growing up and i know i'm not always gonna be going on family vacations and do "family things" and i will eventually only see my family every once in a while. but i'm not ready for that just yet. i'm really starting to realize how much i do care about my family and how much i really do enjoy spending time with them.

hilton head island: summer 2007

another stress - school. how in the world is there only 5 more weeks of classes?? where did the semester go? there is so much work to do in these last few weeks, i don't know how i'm going to have time to do it all. i just have to buckel down and concentrate.

next thing on my mind...chris is leaving. i've known chris since middle school but haven't seen him in over 5 years because we lost contact because he went to a different high school. but these past few weeks i've really started to enjoy reconnecting with him. we've spent a lot of time together lately and he's become one of my closest friends and a confidant. he's easy to talk to and we always have a great time when we hang out. when i am in need of someone to talk to, he's there. but he leaves for Iraq on friday. it's just all happening so fast. i wish i had more time to get to know him again before he has to leave. i'm really going to miss having him to talk to and hang out with.

one of my favorite pictures of us :)

finally, my last little stressor....where the heck am i going to live next year?! i could live in the same apartment but i don't think i can handle the problems with my one roommate. and i just found out her best friend is moving into one of the empty rooms next year. i just can't deal with that, so i have to move out. but to where? and who am i going to live with? do i pay the $250 "transfer fee" to live in a different apartment at the same complex because i really like the complex and most of the people i've met here. but again i have to live with people i don't know. or do i find a brand new complex and live with complete strangers again and hope for the best. again.

ugh, too many things on my mind. but i'm going to try to enjoy this week. i have a lot of school work, but it's my last week with chris. we have a bunch of friends that have great plans to spend chris's last few nights here in raleigh. so i'm going to focus and get as much as i can school wise done so i can enjoy myself. hope everyone has a great week!!