i told you so.

my absolute least favorite saying of the english language: "i told you so." and right now, i'm so sick of hearing it. i'll be the first to admit that i hate to admit when i'm wrong. but who does? no one wants to put their faults out where everyone can see them. and mostly, they are afraid that they will be told "i told you so." it's a really painful saying and i really don't understand what the point of it is...just to make you feel worse? well that's what i feel like right now. i make mistakes. i'm human. and right now, i don't need to be told "i told you so." because that's not helping my situation, it's only making it worse. i did something that, right now, i can't decide if i should think of as a mistake. i did what my heart told me to at the time, and now it's backfiring. my heart is torn. so many people told me not to do it, but i went ahead and did it anyway because, like i said, i followed my heart. but now, i need to follow my head because my heart has let me down. but it makes it worse when i hear "i told you so" because it only makes me want things to work out in my benefit more so i can turn around and say "i told you so" back to all those telling me that now. i guess i just have to wait and see how this pans out. i want to believe i didn't make a mistake and in the end, i will be happy, but who knows. this next week is going to be an emotionally tough one, but it's something that i need. one week. and i will have an answer. it will either be me telling everyone else "i told you so" .....or it will be everyone else still telling me "i told you so" and it will kill me. but i will keep my head up and stay strong because that's how i need to be.