PB&J

it's 1:55am on a saturday night (well i guess technically sunday morning) and I just made myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. i haven't had one of these in ages. hmm probably since my freshman year of college. i forgot how much i like them. except i don't have milk which is kind of disappointing. oh well, i'm still enjoying it.

now kobie and piper are trying to steal it from me. i guess that's what i get for eating it in bed.

why does making one simple little sandwich provoke so many thoughts?

eating pb&j reminds me of elementary school. i don't know why since i'm pretty sure i didn't even eat them in elementary school. daddy always use to make me cold cut sandwiches or wraps for lunch. but when he did make me pb&j, he would always cut the crust off because i don't like crust. i have the best daddy ever. i miss having him make me lunch. welcome to the real world, i guess...

it also reminds me of how simple life use to be. remember the days of elementary school when liking a boy didn't lead to broken hearts. my little sister (10 yrs old) has had a "boyfriend" since second grade. his name is evan. i asked her the other day if she ever had playdates with evan. her response: "well no. but i chase him around the playground." haha ohh how i wish life was that easy again.

another reason life was so simple, school wasn't stressful. of course, back then i thought it was. i hated my teachers for giving me too much homework so that i couldn't go out and play before dinner. but looking back that was nothing compared to what i have now. i never had all-nighters back then. now it's quite common, unfortunately.

it's funny how when you're little, you wish to be grown up. once you get there, looking back, it was kinda nice to be little. but i definitely don't wish to be little again. i miss certain things but i like my grown up, crazy, hectic, stressful, beautiful life and i wouldn't trade it for the world. i'm very happy with the way my life has turned out. sure there's bumps in the road, but they make me a stronger and much better person.

so i leave you with this quote... "sometimes being an adult is exactly what you imagined it would be when you were five: staying up late and eating Lucky Charms for dinner." i thought it was cute. only i guess for this post it should be eating PB&J for dinner. oh well. back to my peanut butter and jelly sandwich.